{note to self}

You are seriously losing weight. Don't quit now. Chicken & green beans gets old super fast, but remember, you LOVE chicken & green beans! YES you DO, dammit. Oh and soda? Next time you reach for one, remember the way it makes you feel like crud & hit the water instead.

The right house will come at the right time. Keep looking, but don't make a rush choice. I know, I know, it really is THAT bad living with mom, but stay the course. This money diet you're about to start, it's gonna suck big time. But just keep reminding yourself where you could be in 4 short months if you stick to it.

He's tired. Let him be. You try working 13 hours & see how you feel afterwards. Granted, if he had stayed in last night like you wanted him to instead of heading off with bad influence Carlos to Tampa, then he wouldn't be quite so tired today... but remember, he's been spending all his free time with you lately, he deserves a night out with the boys.

Wait. Bad influence Carlos? Flashback to almost a year ago, when you first met him. Remember who you thought was the bad influence then? You blamed it all on B. Don't hate on Carlos. He is his best friend after all. And you are the girl that put somewhat of a wedge in between them. Even with all your "I'm not getting involved" comments, you are SO involved. You've (alone with B, he's not innocent either) already done enough to cause huge damage to a friendship, don't let your selfishness push what's left off the ledge.

Note to self don't change for anyone.
Note to self don't die.

Sorry, a little Ryan Adams slip there. I can't say 'note to self' without singing that song in my head.

It's been a long day, a long weekend, go to bed self.